I am struggling with feelings of mistrust. I am able to trace them to a past relationship. I thought I had healed well. But lately, these intense feelings surface when least expected. It seems every time I meditate, I end of crying. In some ways, I see this as a step forward and healing, becoming aware of what was perhaps repressed or able to be re-triggered. But I can't seem to find stillness, I am attaching myself to these thoughts. Your guidance is what I seek. I do not wish to cling to past emotional events. I do not wish to poison my relationship now with the past. Please advise. Many thanks.

I continue to sit and meditate, gently watching my thoughts and feelings, beginning to feel a sense of non-clinging to them...coming down, grounding so to speak. Slowly, my body is releasing the tension built up, not inviting the memory of the feelings to linger. Sitting, quietly, I feel the shifting occuring. I guess sometimes what I need is patience, knowing the turbulent chaotic min-moments will pass, if I allow them to just be.

After a storm,
The forest rebuilds itself.
With no storm,
The forest is only stale.

Sit with no mind.
The body only pauses.
Sit with emotions pouring.
The body begins to heal.

Thankyou, very much.